monday 28th july
steve jobs is gonna get it.

on the upside, alex wanted my home address. he's got a present for me. i'm guessing it's something from the olden days, probably something rare and with either a large amount of wit or sarcasm involved. on the downside having r.s.i from five months' mousing around and lightwave crashing actually makes it painful. this on top of the sheer frustration of having to keyframe the same layers for the fourth time. and apple-s and... crash again. pcs are actually looking like a safe bet these days and i never thought i'd say that. recently, my mail to al on the subject was: 'fucking right i do. i want about a zillion fans on the back, an electric blue glow-strip thing undernerath like a boy racer's car and go faster chevron stripes across the mouse. and various stickers that say 'turbo', 'special edition' and 'gti' on the keyboard.
steve jobs, you're a twat and today in my opinion you don't deserve to be rich.

sunday 27th july
tiesto (to come)

monday 21st july
tiesto starts

saturday 19th and sunday 20th july
picked up steve for officially designated grand prix weekend, checking out his blinds in the process. good food and motorsport: silverstone, seattle, grand valley and the high speed ring. three of which are virtual and spanning two days. endurance, indeed.

friday 18th july
slept at chumpy's for a bit of the old skool vibe while matt and laylah were away in 'manky-chester' as the cheese puts it. when i refer to him i'm spoiled for choice. the luxury.

thursday 17th july
'hello, new door.' steve and monkey: does smaller encourage stronger will?

wednesday 16th july
storms, stupid girl and changing man early before editing.

tuesday 15th july
hotter. the hottest since one year in the early eighties, in fact.

monday 14th july
hot. 32 by my phone's thermometer. someone phoned in to request 'walking on sunshine' in the drive home. that'll be summer music, then.

sunday 13th july
felling small, unshapely thin trees in the back garden. by the end of the day a spider was just closing his loop on the web i noticed sparkling in the low sun as i went to close the back door. he - obviously a male as his name was mr spider - two circular motions of the front legs, a jiggle then a scurry onto the next, quick as a machine. i reckoned he had eight laps left as i pulled the handle with 'sorry, mate'. i felt really bad because i feel exactly the same.

saturday 12th july
the more i see futurama the more i enjoy it.
i've been thinking about lists and chunks of life and music. i'm trying to single down stages of my life into albums.

friday 11th july
went to sainsbury's. drove home. put wallet in pocket wallet. went to sainsbury's. paid for shopping. drove home. steve's do with jennifer, philip and the news that rosalie's now not with tsi any more. it's the same day as yesterday. i'm overdrawn in worry, stress, and feeling cheated so i must be in credt for something good.

thursday 10th july
all the didn'ts and don'ts.
we didn't didn't get it, it's just happening later. which means the same thing. so the we really need it should have been postfixed by an and we need it now. very nearly back to square one, which in all honesty is better than we have been for a while, but i don't know where to get the next lump of motivation from. i'm single. i'm broke. i'm sick of moaning and i don't like it.
happy birthday, steve.

wednesday 9th july
shin and i met ade in an anticlockwise rotational direction on the upper tier at new designers. sometimes it's good to sponge rather than squeeze ideas. 'i can get more from the product design section than then graphics' 'which way are you going?'

tuesday 8th july
modelling, texture mapping, double-checking, re-double checking. it goes. when something so big is out of your hands it's like the end of an exam. one that will be marked subjectivity. experience tells me getting emotional about it won't help but i can't stop hoping.

monday 7th july
zero7 'till 3am. the third pitch and if we have to get it.

sunday 6th july
modelled qr crate with dust, ticked off the volumetrics tab.

saturday 5th july
emma came over after glasses shopping. 'i could have got them now but i need some time to get used to the idea.' i'm not very good with old girlfdriends but today was cool.


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